Yes. You read correctly.

I won’t lie.

I was tempted to do some high level plagiarism this morning.

The gruesome scene, as was staged inside my mind involved me googling tidbits of a summary of the book The 48 Laws of Power written by Best Selling Author, Robert Greene.

I wanted to sell the book to people by pasting a copied summary from a site I had no intention to cite and post it on Instagram as if the work was mine.

But had I done that, who would I be fooling?

Whom would I be robbing the opportunity to continuously replenish my writing skills for clarity of my mind and as a process for healing and letting the world go?

Why are we tempted to do the very opposite we have prayed to achieve?

Why is temptation so lucrative looking? Why is laziness so alluring that it allows us to lose sight of the long or short term goal that we had set out to achieve?

I heard once that our dreams and lessons are waiting at the edge of its seat for us to make the right decision every time. Imagine that.

Can you imagine, that the opportunity to improve my writing skills, become a better blogger and achieve another stream of income was placed right in front of me, yet because of slight or perhaps chronic laziness or fatigue, I was willing to forego the long term gains to soothe the crippling nature of my anxiety? I was anxious because I feared that I didn’t have the skills to continue writing.

Anxiety may ask us to do whatever it takes to soothe the anxiety or it may ask us to bear the pain now , delay gratification and achieve success now.

Could it be that I will need to re-enforce my mission everyday? Does the brain need constant reassurance on why we are working towards our goals?

I think so. Otherwise, it will continue to do what it is accustomed to.

I believe our bodies have memory. Memory of the habitual may also be a safety mechanism to keep us in check with our old values, so as to not be shunned by a group of collective consciousness. I read that somewhere but here I am again being too lazy to cite where.

Perhaps I should have deleted that Paragraph all together . What should I do as I grapple to google the source from which I had gotten the above ideas ?

If I’m to say I read it somewhere , would that suffice?

Let me see if I have a book about the evolution of memory and habit and why we don’t like to deviate from the norm.

Why we feel safe doing the same things repeatedly from memory.

In Yuval Harari’s book Sapiens, he asserted that early humans had to store information to their memories about whole lands, where poisonous fruit was located and where venomous snakes were.

Inherently, a safety net was psychologically formed where habits and already stored information would become a pillar for stability and as such, it is believed that humans evolved to love and feel comfortable with old information and old habits. As such, having to do a new task and sustain the habit of doing so for a greater good, doesn’t initially give us that sense of safety that our pre-historic neighbors enjoyed.

See? That wasn’t so bad. I actually read the book, cited the page and felt a sense of accomplishment that I fought the evil of stealing information.

I’m encouraged by the increase of knowledge as it will open up my subconscious to more substantial and beneficial ways of migrating to change with the world.

I’m encouraging you to start tidbits of new habits or delete tidbits of old habits to allow yourself some Bandwidth to live creatively.

What habit are you willing to lose so that procrastination won’t tempt you to steal or rob yourself of a newly transformed habit?

I was tempted to do some high level plagiarism this morning.