Surrendering is not pleasurable.

It requires me to dissolve my thoughts and feelings about myself.

Surrendering asks that I dismantle what I thought I stood for.

Giving up on who I think I am and starting new.

Starting over and molding someone new.

Molding someone out of redefined values.

Building someone out of someone.

Letting go of shreds built with ego.

Letting go of trophies

Building with people so that we all gain everything but trophies.

I want to master the art of surrender.

I’ve ran so far away from failure that I forgot what it looked like and ran straight into it. I didn’t see it.

I was afraid to fail. Failure reminded me of poverty. This thinking no longer serves me but for years it did.

I didn’t want to feel how I felt as a child. I wanted to run as far away from poverty that I forgot what it looked like and ran straight into it. I didn’t notice it.

#surrender