I hate waking up

I feel my body and emotions strongly when I do

This isn’t an ungrateful rant

This is a meditation

I want to unlearn the hate of waking up

I want to feel alive again

I want to eat healthy again

I want to be in control without controlling things

I don’t want debt to haunt me anymore

I don’t want baggages to haunt me anymore

I want to let go of people from my past. This isn’t healthy. Until it is healthy, I’ll love you at a distance.

I am in shame until I wake up peacefully

Listen to shame

Shane is lethal